Weight Gain

Okay, so I'll admit it. This morning I weighed in at 218.4lbs. Wow. That's 11 lbs up from my bottom weight. Why? I haven't been keeping a constant tally (food journal or mental) of what I've been eating. Because of this lack of vigilence, sugars, carbs, etc. have crept into my diet. I've suffered from mental cravings and put my body back on the carb addiction trail.

*SIGH*

So here we go. Crack down! I'm too close to my scary weight of 220lbs and I have my minor revision plastic surgery coming up on August 10th. I want to be down around 210lbs when that happens. It's back to spacing meals out 4-5 hours, eating smarter, drinking more, and making sure I move every day. Stay tuned......

Emotional Grazing

So after the big push to get down as far as possible --which ended at 207 lbs-- I've now gone back to eating like a normal person. I'm back up to 215 lbs. Still 269 lbs down from where I started; however, it's always freaky to gain 8 lbs (which I find so humorous). My biggest problem these days is grazing. I'm always feeling the need to eat something. I know most of the time it's not hunger so it has to be some type of emotional need (stress, fatigue, boredom, loneliness, or something).

Soooooooooooooooooo.... how to deal. Hmmm.

Well, it's a mental thing so again I need to marshall my willpower and get back on track, take conscious control over what I eat and how much water I drink. More exercise would definitely help with this. I have found that when I exercise I have less time to feel the emotional pull of wanting to eat, exercise also gives me a constant reminder of what I'm trying to accomplish and so makes it easier not to sabotage myself. Of course burning extra calories is always good.

So there you have it. Here we go again... on the ride down. Stay tuned and good luck to all of you who I have recently talked to who are pushing to head on the downward slide with me. As always, feel free to reach out if you need support.

Stressful Week

This has been a stressful week and I've found myself grazing at work. ARGH!! I wish I could just take all the bad things at work and throw them away. Other than that, I do great. LOL I still haven't finished my paperwork for the online trainer. I need to do it this weekend among everything else.

This just reminds me that no matter how far you are out, no matter how well you've done, you have to be conscious of what you eat. Every day. If you don't, it's too easy to slip up, to forget for a little while, and before you know it you've gained back a ton of weight. I'm up about 5-6 lbs from my low of earlier. This is a direct result of slacking off in the "being conscious" arena. I'm not fanatic about getting back but I do need to make sure I am more conscious and STOP the grazing. ARGH (again)!!!

BTW, song of the day is by Metric - Gimme Sympathy. To me this song is telling me not to hold myself back. To take risks without worrying about the consequences because it doesn't last forever. Good advice to us all.